Becky1982's Blog

Just an update

Haven't wrotten any of these for months. Figured it was time.

Hey, just recent updates on me. I am having baby number 4. Pregnancy has been hard on me. My husband was only here for 3 days after my last period. So I call this baby my miracle baby, because he/she was really not expected. Either way, there has been some struggles. First, the doctors wondered it the baby was aptopic. Scary stuff. And inbetween all the morning sickness, complete tiredness, the lack of work for my husband and a new mouth to feed. It has been a little stressful. The morning sickness now has been softened quite a bit. And I am getting excited about having a new baby coming. I figure that the baby was obviously meant to be. So I have no problem believing that God will let everything go ok and my husband will find a job close to where I live to be with us and help me raise my babies rather then doing it alone. Either way, my kids are my world and rather then being stressed about having a new baby, and how much more it will cost to raise another baby, or that I will have 4 kids under the age of 6. I am trying to think of it as the fact that my baby came a year earlier then planned. That I will have 4 wonderful children that I can see be raised properly and become assets to the world. Or atleast that is my hopes. Everything happens for a reason, right? I was hoping to have one planned pregnancy. But they are all loved and wanted. That is for sure. Either way, with every twist and turn that the world throws at us, I find it some times hard to not be bitter, sometimes I have to take a step back and look at all the good in the world.

I mean, I have 4 healthy (well heres hoping number 4 is too) and beautiful children that make my world what it is. I am one lucky person. Some people can't even be able to experience one child that is a peice of them, and many people can't carry a child. I am lucky. I got to experience a baby growing in my belly 4 times. And as much as pregnancy and delivering is hard work, and really draining, and at times kills. I am happy that I can enjoy it and experience it. Kids are blessings. They are hard to raise and raise right. And my job is the most important job in the whole wide world. I mean, the way I raise my children is how the kids of the next generation will be turning out. Whether or not if my children will be assets to the world or not is up to the fact if I raise my children right. Either way, I hope I am doing it right. My kids so far seem to be well behaved and happy enouph with life. Either way, this is my life and I wouldn't take it back for anything in the world.